Life is so… whatever.

Clar pointed me to this awesome, awesome blog entry. In which I saw myself in practically half of the thing (only parts I couldn’t relate to were writing a children’s book and having a kid, LOL).

I write because writing gives me pleasure.  To say something well, to tell a story, to communicate an idea is fulfilling and fun.

I write because I have ideas that can’t be expressed in Java or C# and that don’t have a place in a technical journal.

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I write because I can. I’m not going to win any Nobel prizes in my lifetime, but I can put fingertips to keyboard and cobble together some well-constructed sentences.  I’m learning more and more that this is a gift, one that should not be wasted.

Finally, I write because there is something wildly romantic about writing.  I love my job. I love my work. The things I do on a day-to-day basis–these are all good.  However, now and then, I get don this persona of “writer” or “author” that puts you in touch with a second self, a secret identity, who gets to talk about feelings and hopes and ideals in ways that, well, just don’t belong in a CS class.

That’s why I write.

Ok shhh, I’m completely aware the I almost quoted the entire thing. LOL.

And seriously, I just have to paste this again, because this line is MADE OF WIN: I write because I have ideas that can’t be expressed in Java or C# and that don’t have a place in a technical journal. Haha. So fitting. (Ok so malamang, dahil taga-CS sya sa Ateneo LOL, but still.) As I said to Clar, I can see our future already. HAHAHA.

So. I’m glad to report that after almost a week of listening to nothing but Crush, the other day I started listening to my whole music library again. Congratulate me. And listening to my entire library is always surprising, because I didn’t even know I had half the songs that come up (like, hey, did you know I had the Jeff Buckley version of Hallelujah? No, I didn’t know that either, LOL), because they’re either from TV soundtracks (which for some reason I have never listened to in their entirety, so I usually only know the more well-known songs), or from the albums I downloaded for my cousin. And those ones I don’t usually listen to because though I do kinda like those artists, I never felt inclined to explore what my cousin made me download. Which is such a shame, because there’s Jason Mraz! And ok so I don’t care much for Chris Brown so yeah, not listening to that. But I do kinda like Jordin, although her pop-RnB hits never warranted repeat-listening to me. But hey, now I actually believe Archie when he said Jordin has a mix of radio songs and slightly deeper songs on her CD (yes, I obviously have never listened to her album before now LOL). Like this song, which I am currently listening to on repeat.

God Loves Ugly
Jordin Sparks

You said that I wasn’t pretty
So I just believed you
And you said that I wasn’t special
So I lived that way
With critical gazes and brutal amazement
And how my reflection could be so imperfect
With all of my blemishes, how could somebody want me?

[Chorus:]
But God loves ugly
He doesn’t see the way I see
Oh God takes ugly
And turns it into to something that is beautiful
Apparently I’m beautiful
Cause you love me
Whoa, oh

I tried to clean up the outside
All shiny and new
Worked over time to thin up and look right
But inside I knew
That deep in the bottom were secrets I thought I could try to ignore
Old ghosts in my corridors
Never get tired of haunting the past that’s in me

[Chorus:]
But God loves ugly
He doesn’t see the way I see
Oh God takes ugly
And turns it into to something that is beautiful
Apparently I’m beautiful
Cause you love me

Help me believe why you love me
When I know you see
You see everything
Help me believe why you love me
When I know you see
Inside and you still say I’m beautiful

You’re telling me I’m beautiful
Your screaming out I’m beautiful
And I’m finding out I’m beautiful
You’re making me so beautiful
And I can I’m beautiful
Cause you love me
Whoa, oh

WAH. ANG GANDA. <33333

Once in a while, I actually have blog entries about things or people not named David. This entry is one of them.

So, leave it to my best friend to give her birthday gift to me late. Like, three days late (yes, this entry is three days late also). Even though she was there during my birthday dinner. HARRUMPH.

Ok whatever, naggalit-galitan pa, eh ang totoo I can’t really bring myself to care when the gift is this awesome:

Meet Berting’s new BFF.

And hey look, it also has a nifty pouch thing for my laptop charger, yay!

Ok, so maybe none of you get what is so extremely awesome about a laptop sleeve/bag. Hahaha nothing, really, except I have been complaining forever to Cam about my lack of one. Which speaks of two things: a) my best friend loves me and knows what will make me happy (materialistic much? LOL), and b) my best friend is rich. :lol: Kasi naman, I lacked one because I couldn’t afford one. Not when I’m saving up for the many many things that the extremely materialistic side of me wants (nano, camera, David Cook concert tickets!), and certainly not when I keep spending on random stuff like headbands, LOL.

Also, this was the gift that I said in another entry didn’t work out. Because these things are expensive in Trinoma, and I certainly didn’t expect even her to spend that kind of money on me. So yeah, even though it was probably pretty obvious in how she said she was decorating the thing, I didn’t really expect it to be this anymore. I think the first thing I said when I opened the paper bag was, “WEH?!” haha. I had already resigned myself long ago to the fact that such a thing belongs to the list of stuff I will buy when I get ridiculously rich (or after I get my nano and my camera). But lo and behold, I still got one! SO AWESOME. I LOVE IT.

What makes it even more awesome is the design, entirely handmade by my awesome best friend. No, it does not suck. I love it.

And the letter. OMG. It’s suuuper hilarious, but suuuper touching too and I swear di ko talaga alam kung matatawa ako o maiiyak habang binabasa ko. Dude. I love that it’s written on paper ripped from your notebook, and I love your messy handwriting, and how you won’t apologize for any of that because it’s you. And I won’t have it any other way. <333

Ok andami ko pang naiisip sabihin before kaso di ko na maalala right now so… I shall end this abruptly now na. Haha.

PS. Its official name is now BFF, which stands for Berting’s Friend Forever. No, I did not invent that. My BFF did. Hahaha.

PS2. Yes, awesome is now my favorite word.

After listening to Crush for another million times, let me just say how much I love the piano in the background. Like, really really love it. I have a thing for piano (must be why Angels is one of my favorite Archie performances ever, as he plays the piano there OMG!), and I especially love when songs start off with the piano. (There’s this David Cook song from his pre-idol album that starts off with some really haunting piano action that I absolutely love. Not complete sure what song it is as I am –obviously– not a super fangirl, but I think it’s Silver?)

Um, wala lang, just wanted to share. :P

OH, ARCHIE. <3

TRUE STORY: I was literally jumping up and down as I waited for the song to download completely. My sister looked at me like I was crazy, LOL.

So I admit, I wasn’t too crazy about the song at first listen. I liked it, but I was like, “It’s so… pop.” LOL. To quote someone’s comment on Fanblast (I think), “I liked the song but he is capable of more.” And then I put it on repeat on my iTunes because hey, it is DAVID ARCHULETA’S FIRST SINGLE and even though ok the lyrics make me LOL a bit (oh, the TRAVESTY! Haha.), his voice is awesome as always. I just really wish they could’ve showcased it more in this song. But yeah well he needs a contemporary-sounding first single, and this one is actually pretty good, all things considered. And yeah ok after the first million listens, it has definitely grown on me. Like, um, I’ve probably listened to it a hundred times already in the last 12 hours, no lie. (And I might’ve memorized the lyrics already after the first hour of listening LOL) It’s catchy and nice and kinda has a bit of an rnb vibe to it and ok, I LOVE IT NOW. <33333 Way to go, Archie!

Why do I keep running from the truth, all I ever think about is you

PS. Also, Archie’s reaction as his song was being played on the radio is the most adorable thing EVERRR. He kept fidgeting and shaking. Oh, Archie. There’s no need to worry. We love it. <333