Life is so… whatever.

anna says i should write more.

with 4 comments

i think i do too.

i don’t even know why i don’t anymore. sometimes i read my old blog, the one i had before this, and weep (er, figuratively, of course) for those bygone days when i actually wrote, not posted some random pictures and flail and called them a blog entry. my older blog started off as teenyboppery, but there are some gems in there that i really like. and that sounds pretty self-centered, but i really used to like my writing. it was all about myself, much like what my blog is now –i could never pull off writing commentary about politics or religion or whatever, i’ve always thought it would be pretentious if i did because i know i don’t know enough about those matters to write anything coherent and well-informed that will not make me look like an idiot–, but some of it was introspective, and deep and well thought-of, and sometimes i can’t believe i even wrote any of that.

but now i barely write at all, and my entries are few and far between and contain so little substance. i don’t know, maybe i’ve just been busy, maybe i spend too much time tweeting that i’ve forgotten how to write longer than 140 characters, maybe i’ve just lost touch of the real world after all my time spent in fandom. or well. for a time i was in a dark place but it was something i couldn’t write about, not publicly, because it was a private fight, for everyone involved. but for the rest of the time, i really have no excuse.

so for 2010, i am making one resolution, and that is to write more. and i’m posting it here so i don’t run away from this, because if i just scribble it on my planner then it’s easy to pretend i never said it, and no one will hold me to it. but i am putting this out there, so i’ll be pressured compelled to do so, because if it’s on the internet, then it must be so. haha.

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Written by eeeek

December 29, 2009 at 5:43 pm

Posted in Musings, Nostalgia

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  1. i share the same sentiments. i never wrote as good as you but somehow, writing, whether publicly or privately, helped me make sense of life. now i feel like i just go through with motions and never sort anything out. writing was cathartic for me most of the time. now i’m afraid i will just combust spontaneously. so let’s resolve this year to reconnect with our muses. :)

    imang

    December 31, 2009 at 1:39 pm

    • now i feel like i just go through with motions and never sort anything out.
      me too. with how busy life has become, i rarely sit down and just think, and i miss that. :( so yeah, this year it’s time to reconnect with our muses! \o/

      eeeek

      January 4, 2010 at 1:21 pm

  2. Yey! to your going back to writing more :)

    Don’t be too hard on yourself though, it isn’t unheard of that a blogger’s life (acads and the like) takes its toll on blogging time. This is primarily because a “good” blogger–such as yourself–is torn among three things:

    *regular posting
    *substantial posts
    *and merely posting.

    And when you are so tired with a day’s worth of LIFE you just don’t think much about these anymore.

    So go ahead and just blog. At least i can assure you I will be staying as a fan :P

    JM

    January 4, 2010 at 10:33 am


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