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end of year survey meme thing – 2015 edition

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It feels like I only post to recap my years. LOL.

Where did you begin 2015?
At home as usual.

What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?

  • Went to Cambodia (and, on a related note, went to a place where genocide happened. It was… quite a depressing learning experience.
  • Got a guitar pick at a concert(!!!). LOVE U THE SCRIPT
  • Drove an automatic!
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January 1, 2016 at 1:06 pm

end of year survey meme thing – 2014 edition

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aka in which you see how much I’ve fallen in love with Australia. sigh.

Where did you begin 2014?
At home, watching the neighbors’ fireworks — still. The parents who used to live in the house in front of ours kissed at midnight, aww.

What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?

  • Went on a trip with my sister and not my parents. twice.
  • Went on a trip that I paid for, with my parents.
    • Experienced winter! Not a snowy winter, but temperatures were in the single digits. Finally got to wear a coat and gloves and a million layers, haha.
    • Went to a concert outside the Philippines (actually went to two)
    • SAW SNOW. AHHHH. Though it doesn’t snow in Sydney, there’s this mountain place (called the Snowy Moutains. How creative, Australia.) where it does and people go to ski and stuff. It wasn’t snowing the day we were there but it had snowed for most of the week before so it was all white and fluffy (and wet and cold. haha)
    • BUILT A SNOWMAN. A tiny, pathetic one.
    • Lived on my own AND abroad. I say lived because hey, it was a long time and I had an apartment (that I didn’t pay for lolol) and bought groceries and cooked. And took out the garbage. Let me pretend, okay lol.
    • Spent my birthday not at home — and in another country, in fact. Not with my family.

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January 1, 2015 at 8:46 pm

end of year survey meme thing – 2013 edition

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Where did you begin 2013?
At home, watching the neighbors’ fireworks.

What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?
Went abroad with just my friends and no family. Went on an actual trip with Fatimang and Clar (six years after high school and the farthest we’d gone before this was Nico’s house in Antipolo). Got surgery (okay, minor only to remove a wisdom tooth, but still!). Got stitches. Got a credit card (finally)!

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January 8, 2014 at 12:51 am

end of year survey meme thing – 2012 edition

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Where did you begin 2012?
In Nueva Ecija. I think. I don’t actually remember much except for my mad scramble to finish 100 movies within the year.

What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?
Drove 120kph. Interviewed someone for a job. Went to Boracay (and partied like it’s the end of the world?). Did something only Kim and a couple of people know.

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January 2, 2013 at 10:42 pm

shit my family says, and other random things

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this morning, at breakfast:

me: uy sale ng tv sa may office namin next week.
mom: tara bili tayo.
me: bakit, di naman ako nanonood ng tv. kelangan mo ng bagong LCD tv para manood ng wiltime bigtime?

(my mother watches that rubbish every night. jfc.)


later this morning:

me: sino yung may party na pupuntahan nyo?
dad: sila ninong. ninong namin sa kasal.
me: nakita ko na ba yun?
dad: oo nung kasal namin.


yesterday i was at work. then my team lead and i left earlier than i expected. and then i did some research and found that the bourne legacy was shooting at the MRT Taft station. so instead of going north… i went south. um. AND THEN I SAW JEREMY RENNER, AND WALKED DIRECTLY BEHIND RACHEL WEISZ. awwyeah.

me: nasa taft station ung bourne legacy!
sis: lol okay
me: PUMUNTA AKO HAHAHA. ngayon lang ako nakakita ng hollywood star. XDDD
sis: bat sinasabi ng tv5 hollywood star daw si david lol :))


i am 21. i am young and in my twenties and this is as good a time as any to do stupid things. so on wednesday i did A Stupid Thing. i did not like it, and will not make it a habit, which is good because said Stupid Thing is not good for you.


k: you want? *holds out Stupid Thing*
me: nah.
k: lol why, masyado pang may araw for you?

(because i have only ever tried the Stupid Thing in the dark of night. lolol)

(lmfao i realize this post makes it sound like the Stupid Thing is a whole other thing than what it is.) (make of it what you will lolol)


k i am going to start eating healthier because my doctor said so because of some health… problems. and angel just came from surgery for her kidney stones and now she can’t eat sweet or salty things or drink alcohol or BASICALLY EAT ANYTHING THAT TASTES ANYTHING AT ALL. and i realized that health is a really delicate and important thing and i don’t want to get to that point when i can’t eat anything anymore so now i will just eat better and take care of myself better because JFC I AM 21 I AM TOO YOUNG FOR THIS SHIT

note to self.

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“Being gifted doesn’t mean you’ve been given something.

It means, you have something to give.”

–from here

I need to remember this. Because since high school, people keep calling us that, and sometimes I feel so unworthy to be getting this amazing free education, plus monetary allowance.  But when I accepted my scholarships and decided to study in UP, I promised myself that I’m going to make myself worth it. I haven’t forgotten that.  I may be frivolous and shallow and materialistic sometimes, but I never forget that I’m being given this privilege not so I can enjoy the perks of having a stipend, but so I can have the best education possible so that one day I can serve my country. I never forget that it’s the Filipino people who make it possible for me to have this, all of this. And one day I’m going to give it back to you all.

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January 25, 2010 at 7:41 pm

more quotes.

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I swear I’m going to do actual school work after posting this and updating my scrapbook.

“I want to get away from the internet and actually enjoy real life – moment after moment, and not tab-after-tab.”


In recent months I’ve been living practically in front of my computer. In some ways it’s great because I’m always connected to everyone through the internet, but sometimes I realize I’ve become too dependent on it. When my internet fails, it’s disconcerting and unsettling to me. It’s ridiculous. I’m trying to be better at this, to not seclude myself from real life as much as I did for a few months in 2009, and I think I’ve made progress. I should’ve done what John Mayer did, reduce online time to an absolute minimum for the first week of 2010 (as in only for checking your email because though this is a noble undertaking, the world wouldn’t pause for your online detox and school/work matters will still make their way to your inbox). But I didn’t even attempt because the mere thought of not being online makes me feel a little lost. I don’t know why, I lived the first few years of my life without internet, the next few with cheap dialup that we only sometimes used. But in recent years, technology has made it so easy to live in your computer and forget that there’s actually a world outside.

I’ve always been a little anti-social, but my attachment to my computer has made it so much worse. My family gets so bored at home because we’re all busy with school/work/whatever, and more often than not, one of us will find themselves home alone for hours. They hate it. It’s like we just live in the same house but we don’t really live together. And I get their point, I do, and sometimes I suddenly realize that it’s been days since we all actually had dinner together and it makes me sad. But I also like my alone time, sitting at the kitchen table and reading random things on my laptop, with my iPod hooked up to speakers on full blast and a mug of coffee beside me or some dinner I’d managed to scrape up. Not that I hate spending time with my family –except when shopping, because that almost always ends up in a fight and really, I like shopping alone better. Except I have no one to pay for my materialistic needs, haha–, but I think I just like solitude better than they do. Sometimes I would rather sit at home and check on fandom or twitter or plurk or (recently) tumblr, or maybe write a bit if inspiration strikes me, than go to the mall with my family. Or even if I deign to go out, I would check twitter and my mail through my phone several times a day. I’ve been trying to curb that habit, though. Now I only do it when I’m bored on the commute to and from school. HAHA. It’s not actually the going with family that I don’t like. Sometimes I just don’t feel like going out of the house and interacting with the rest of the human populace in general.

I think Project 365 has been helping me a bit to live in the moment. It forces me to get away from my computer for at least a little bit and find something notable to photograph other than my screen, to look at my life and actually see it going on around me (haha, Avatar reference! That movie was good for something after all), to go through my day and find at least one beautiful thing in it. I like bringing my camera to school despite the incovenience (it is kind of big), because I get to capture little moments (particularly with my blockmates) that make me think, “When I look back on my life, I will remember this afternoon and smile.”


“I don’t want to put down the good I still have on paper. I want to keep it to myself. Once the ink is on paper, part of it always feels lost.”

I read that in some story or other, and I really liked it because I’ve always felt that way. Sometimes you feel a joy that is so overwhelming that you want to shout it from the rooftops and share it with the world, but sometimes there’s this. When something special and nice and beautiful happens to you, that you just want to hold it tight against your chest and live in that moment forever. I like the feeling that that moment was mine and mine alone. I feel like writing it down means it’s finally over. Even if I’m writing it in my private journal, it still feels like something is lost, somehow.  Is that weird?

Sigh, why am I in a melancholy mood today. I should go back to programming now.


My mom has some of our chapel’s priests and seminarians for lunch today, because that’s what our village does. Every Sunday one home plays host to them for lunch, because our residents are very involved in church activities and they’re all lovely and the seminarians who are assigned to our village love that they’re well taken care of here, haha. I love them. And Sunday lunch with them here makes me smile, because I love that there are still young men who choose to go into this vocation. :)

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January 17, 2010 at 1:45 pm

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