trying to climb but i keep falling farther~

All day I’ve been listening to the three new albums I got yesterday: Kris Allen’s self-titled debut record, OneRepublic’s Waking Up, and John Mayer’s Battle Studies. I don’t ever write album reviews (didn’t even write one for BB D, haha) but I am just loving having so much great new music to listen to, all in the same day that I just have to talk about them all, lol.

EEEE, I am pleasantly surprised at how this album turned out. It’s quite different from his pre-idol music: edgier, harder. Not that his pre-idol album was bad, I just wasn’t too crazy about it. But this one, I am kind of really loving it. It kind of reminds me of The Fray, The Script, and a bit of John Mayer, and some early OneRepublic (meaning the Dreaming Out Loud days, not their new album) in some songs. Which is good, because those are some of my favorite artists. But that doesn’t mean the record sounds like a copy, it still sounds very much like Kris. :) Um, Heartless took a bit of time before I warmed up to it, because I really loved the Idol version and even now I still prefer that over the album version. But it’s grown on me after that initial WUT moment, haha.

Favorite tracks: I Need to Know is a GORGEOUS piano track, I love it so much. Next favorite is The Truth.

This is really different from their first album. FAR edgier, louder, bolder. Honestly when I first heard the lead single off this album, it took some getting used to, but now I really love their new sound. Love the loud drums, and the string ensemble! And there are some really… ~out there effects and things that make me go WUT, but in a good way. I was like, “HEY ONEREPUBLIC, THESE THINGS YOU DID ON YOUR RECORD ARE KIND OF RIDIC, BUT I LOVE IT.” Some of the songs are still reminiscent of their old sound though, except kind of different too, hmm.

Favorite tracks: LOVELOVELOVE All This Time. I am loving Lullaby, Fear and Good Life too. And Waking Up. And I still really love All the Right Moves. Eff, I love the whole thing. Really.

Love the theme he’s got going on. Battle Studies talaga eh, what with songs entitled Heartbreak Warfare, War of My Life and Assassin. A lot of people have been saying this is his best album yet. (LOL after some poking around, apparently a lot of people think it sucks too. Rofl. Whatever, I still like it.) I can’t form a definitive opinion on this because I didn’t use to listen to him extensively until a few months ago, but it is a really good album. Such beautiful songs, OH MY HEART. I think this one is my favorite out of the three albums I’m listening to (but apparently only barely, because I almost doubted this decision when I was listing my favorite OneRepublic tracks and realized that I loved so many).

Favorite tracks: coincidentally, two of the battle-related titles I mentioned are my favorites: Heartbreak Warfare and Assassin. And All We Ever Do Is Say Goodbye. I also like Friends, Lovers or Nothing even though I don’t necessarily agree with what it’s saying, hahaha. And um, I kind of love ALL OF IT, really.

In conclusion, YAY NEW MUSIC BRB LISTENING OVER AND OVER AND OVER. Am on my second run through (on all of them), haha.

 

my new curtains look like funky seaweed.

Also, my bed is super messy. D:

 

this i promise you~

THAT IS ALL.

 

rebuild.

I was supposed to spend today (er, yesterday, since it’s 1am now) with my blockmates.

But plans got messed up by my horrid sleeping habits, as all my plans are wont to do. By some happy coincidence, I ended up spending the day with someone else, who my friendship with has been on the rocks for the last six months. I could’ve still spent the day with my blockmates, but when she asked, it was no contest, really. These opportunities don’t come very often these days, and I missed her. It was just the two of us, something we hadn’t done in a long time. I didn’t think it was going to be as comfortable as it was, seeing as we’re still (re)testing the waters. But it was, and it was nice.

awesome day w/ @eeeek! spent 3 hrs waiting in line at d uni, 3 hrs deciding where to eat, 3 hrs shopping for school supplies. good times! :D

There are definitely worse ways to spend my last day of freedom. Good times, indeed. ♥

http://www.mediafire.com/?yjcfhmjt13mawesome day w/ @eeeek! spent 3 hrs waiting in line at d uni, 3 hrs deciding where to eat, 3 hrs shopping for school supplies. good times! :D

 

every second counts on a clock that’s ticking

A+, Mr. Allen. A+

i will probably be forever biased towards The Script though and wish they’d released this, but that’s just because i fell in love with the band first, and is no fault of Kris Allen at all

That said, I really like this video. The clock was a nice touch, although what I like in particular is that he’s in the clock. LOL. I don’t know why. And I love the parts where he’s at the piano, because I didn’t really expect that. I mean, I know he plays the piano, I just didn’t think he’d do it in this video. I also love that he was standing while playing, idk.

Also, Kris looks adorable. Hahaha.

Also#2, I REALLY REALLY LOVE THIS SONG.

 

when you fall the hardest, you find how strong you are

Let’s talk about the previous semester.

• It was honestly the most horrible semester of my life.
• I’ve never cried so much over school before. (I’ve also cried a lot for another reason, but that’s a story for another day.)
• I’ve never been furious at a teacher before. But, me and my friends were royally screwed over, he was really crap and mean teacher, and how I even  passed that subject, I’ll never know.
• I have this weird magic mojo with classes that I almost failed, that I end up getting a higher grade than exptected. Case in point: Class In Which We Got Royally Screwed Over. There was really no way I was passing that class, but I did. I just wish my friends did too, though. I feel guilty that I won the EEE lottery or something. I wish I could share that luck with my friends. :( Also, I keep checking back on my grades, terrified that they just made a mistake and I actually failed. Or that I was just imagining things and read my grade wrong. Or that my prof decided to screw me over one last time, kind of pull the rug from under me just when I thought I’m already safe. I wouldn’t put it past him, really.
• Last sem I had a record seven exams in 10 days, and I thought it couldn’t get any worse than that. But this semester I had six exams in five consecutive days. No time to even breathe. That was the week I thought I was either going to die of exhaustion, or kill myself before it was all over.
• By the last week of the semester I was practically living on my couch, sleeping for only 2-4 hours a night, spontaneously bursting into tears at random times, and surviving on coffee and music.
• My major is like a killing machine, for srs. I can probably count on one hand how many of us in my block can still graduate on time, and only half of the original block still remain in this course.
• Have I mentioned how we got royally screwed over? Because I don’t think I will get over that. Not going to go over the details here, but let’s just say he was the meanest person I have ever had the misfortune to meet. It’s one thing to like, maybe give difficult exams, but it’s another to apparently enjoy seeing your students fail because you never did anything to help them. It’s like he missed the compassion gene when it was being given out, I don’t even know.

Here’s to hoping the coming semester turns out better. Or at the very least, PLEASE GOD DON’T PUT ME IN A CLASS UNDER HIM AGAIN. :(((((

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Don’t fucking harsh my squee.

 

He is my hero.

This wasn’t actually the post I was going to make. I was going to talk about my day with my BFF yesterday, and about This Is It, but this came along.

“…you know what, this is proof that I went and I took that path, and this is proof that I did all I could and that I was willing to take that path even if it wasn’t the easiest path to take.”

–David Archuleta, Utah Women’s Conference 2009

When I graduate, I WILL SAY THIS AND BE PROUD OF MYSELF.

More inspiring bits from that speech:

“I think if everything was easy in our lives we wouldn’t be able to enjoy life as much because when things are difficult I think it’s those hard things in life that make you appreciate your life so much more.  The great things in life, you appreciate them because you have something to compare them to and contrast them to.”

“We don’t know what tomorrow will bring exactly, but I think it’s important to stay hopeful about it.  I think it’s real important to stay optimistic about it because, yeah, even if today is hard… think about how great tomorrow can be… because it really is up to you. A lot of hard things can be going on in our lives, but there’s always something great to be focusing on.”

“It is just really interesting how things work even if you don’t see it right now, it’s amazing how things will work out in the long run as long as you keep your faith and keep looking positive in the future.”

I don’t know why this is even affecting me this much. I guess this speech just came during a really rough time for me, so it’s making me real emotional. David said some really amazing things there that inspired me and made me feel better. Oh BB, you will always be my favorite.

He also talked about how he was called Smiley Boy in school because smiled at everyone and a girl actually came up to him and said it meant a lot to her sister! He talked about how something small like that can make a difference in someone without you knowing it. I wish he knew just how much of a difference he made in my life because of this speech, because of his smiles, because of his actions, because of his existence.

Also! He visits his widowed neighbors when he comes home because he says “sometimes people forget”!  HOW IS HE REAL ♥ ♥ ♥

 

TV this time

I actually have stuff to be depressed about, but whatever.

List 10 TV shows you like, in no specific order. Do this before reading the questions below.

1. Supernatural
2. Merlin
3. Glee
4. How I Met Your Mother
5. Big Bang Theory
6. CSI: Las Vegas
7. Psych
8. Criminal Minds
9. House
10. Gilmore Girls

 

Music meme/survey/thing.

Pick 10 artists you like BEFORE answering the questions. (I’ve done something similar before, but I like answering these things, haha.)

1. David Archuleta
2. David Cook
3. Jason Mraz
4. The Script
5. OneRepublic
6. The Beatles
7. John Mayer
8. Sara Bareilles
9. James Morrison
10. Jack’s Mannequin

Um, I just realize that I listen to a LOT more male artists than female? Oops.

 

the thing is.

i should be studying. i woke up at 3:15 am for this.

except i am not.

i might regret this later, but right now i’m just happy we’re on the way back to normal.