Happy birthday/anniversary/whatever to the country that was my home for two months last year. It was short but sweet, and I have nothing but the fondest memories. :’) Here’s to hoping I get to come back someday.
One of my favorite stories/memories about Australia is going to see Bastille in Melbourne. It was one giant coincidence — I wasn’t even supposed to be in Melbourne that weekend, because if my bosses had their way I’d have flown to Sydney two weeks before and I’d have been in Melbourne the previous weekend, which was a long weekend. But visas take time and I only got it before the previous weekend, so my friend D and I decided to go to Melbourne on June 13th, Friday night, and fly back to Sydney on the 15th. Also, even if I’d been there a week early, flights on the long weekend were understandably very expensive by then.
We’d been looking at concerts and shows going on in Australia while we were there and knew Bastille had shows in Sydney and Melbourne that weekend, but they were already sold out when we first checked, right after I got the news that I was going to be sent to Sydney. But when we were booking flights to Melbourne (a couple of days before my flight to Sydney), we thought of checking concert tickets again on a whim. Surprise, new Bastille tickets were available! Suddenly the decision process got a little more complicated. We had two choices:
a) Stick with the original plan to fly back on the 15th, or
b) go to the concert and get the earliest flight back the next morning (there were no late flights we could take that night after the concert).
aka in which you see how much I’ve fallen in love with Australia. sigh.
Where did you begin 2014?
At home, watching the neighbors’ fireworks — still. The parents who used to live in the house in front of ours kissed at midnight, aww.
What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?
- Went on a trip with my sister and not my parents. twice.
- Went on a trip that I paid for, with my parents.
- WENT TO AUSTRALIAAAAAAAA
- Experienced winter! Not a snowy winter, but temperatures were in the single digits. Finally got to wear a coat and gloves and a million layers, haha.
- Went to a concert outside the Philippines (actually went to two)
- SAW BASTILLE LIVE WHICH IS ITS OWN ITEM BECAUSE IT WAS THE GREATEST
- SAW SNOW. AHHHH. Though it doesn’t snow in Sydney, there’s this mountain place (called the Snowy Moutains. How creative, Australia.) where it does and people go to ski and stuff. It wasn’t snowing the day we were there but it had snowed for most of the week before so it was all white and fluffy (and wet and cold. haha)
- BUILT A SNOWMAN. A tiny, pathetic one.
- Lived on my own AND abroad. I say lived because hey, it was a long time and I had an apartment (that I didn’t pay for lolol) and bought groceries and cooked. And took out the garbage. Let me pretend, okay lol.
- Spent my birthday not at home — and in another country, in fact. Not with my family.
My last post was my usual year-end/beginning post, and now another year is about to end and I’m about to post another one of those. Not that anyone ever reads this anymore, but. I hardly wrote at all (in whatever way, shape or form) this year, and it feels like I’ve been less introspective. It’s not even that I’m super busy. It’s not either that there’s nothing to write about, because actually, a bunch of cool and exciting things happened this year. I’ve traveled more than I ever have in years before, did a lot of things for the first time, liked a bunch of new things. I don’t know, I’ve just let go of writing, and reading (I’m way short of my reading goal this year, it’s pathetic), and just a lot of things in general. I feel like I’m getting old and tired and just removing things in my life that make me tired and annoyed, and unconsciously I’ve also apparently let go of things that I like (which sucks), and somehow it includes things that will need me to brave the ever-worsening traffic and general stress of getting around this metro and that’s a big part of the problem, because now I’ve been to lazy to go to things. And another big part is me being bored of what I do everyday. I feel like I work just to be able to do things that I actually want to do and have fun doing, which is fine since at least work leaves me with time to do so, but sometimes I want something more. Good Lord, quarter-life crisis is SO MUCH FUN.
In other news, I’ve been talking and catching up with K tonight and while I feel sad that I missed some major milestones in her life (she’s engaged and will be married in 26 days!), I’m over being bitter (I mean, it’s not like I was the only one who stopped messaging) and just want to try and remain friends and at least catch up once in a while. And I know we are still friends, because the conversation tonight has been easy like it always has been, like picking up an old conversation about Colin and music and life, except I kind of have to put in a tiny bit more effort to keep the talking going, but that’s okay. I’ve been learning that as I grow older (and hopefully grow up) the people in my life are growing too and I realize who I want to keep in my life despite distance and general busyness, and she is one of them. I realize it’s going to be deliberate and not always easy but hey, she was practically living in another timezone even when she was here, and if we got through having different shifts then we can do this.
Other things that have happened since my last post, which I will hopefully write about one of these days:
- WENT TO AUSTRALIA. Which is hands-down the best trip of my life. Such a lovely place. No matter how bored and tired I am of my job, that experience is something I will always be grateful to have.
- Fell in love with the band Bastille, which truly started in Australia when I saw them in Melbourne even though I was just a casual fan by then (how I was there and got tickets when they were playing are one huge coincidence and it feels like it’s meant to be)
- Went on a couple of trips with just my sister and Fatima (and okay, that one time with her sisters and mother). My sister and I never did this before.
- Also treated my parents to a trip to Palawan in January, which is the first time I’ve done something big for them.
- New cats!
- A bunch of other things but mostly the highlight of my year is two months in Australia!!!
Where did you begin 2013?
At home, watching the neighbors’ fireworks.
What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?
Went abroad with just my friends and no family. Went on an actual trip with Fatimang and Clar (six years after high school and the farthest we’d gone before this was Nico’s house in Antipolo). Got surgery (okay, minor only to remove a wisdom tooth, but still!). Got stitches. Got a credit card (finally)!
not for much longer, but hey.
We’re happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time
It’s miserable and magical.
Tonight’s the night when we forget about the deadlines
yep. just for this night, for this weekend, let me forget that i only go home now to get not near enough sleep, shower, dress up and get ready to face another day of… more of this. i’m exhausted, too exhausted to even think of quitting, i just crawl through the day and hope it means i’m one day closer to this being over. but just for this weekend, let me not think about work. i think i deserve that much.
i’m a (silent!) crier when i’m sad, and sometimes i’m a crier when i’m happy. it’s a little terrifying, always feeling so much.
It’s amazing how someone else could put into words exactly how I feel, in a way that I never could myself.
In other news (aka things that have happened since my last post ages ago):
- Malaysia/Singapore was super fun and super exhausting and LOL WHERE DID ALL MY MONEY GO.
- And then… THE SCRIPT AHHHHH THEY STILL GIVE THE BEST CONCERTS. Was much closer this time, and even got to touch Danny when he went down to the audience! My sister hugged him, what even.
- Company summer outing was fun, one of the drunkest times I’ve ever been in my life, but still got to manage it enough that I was still just within the happy-drunk zone, albeit barely and tbh I woke up wanting to throw up but I just countered it with lots of oily hangover food.
- Work is still kicking my ass, but I can see a light at the end of this tunnel! AKA moving projects soon, and hopefully not going to be 150% allocated anymore.
- Twisted my OTHER knee this weekend because I apparently do not know how to use my legs, so I called in sick today. Slept most of it away, although was logged in to my work PC in the morning. As Jessica Zafra once said on her blog, “For sanity and general health maintenance I can’t think of anything better than spending a weekday vegetating at home.” EXACTLY.My parents were being all, “that’s because you’re so fat! and you’re just in the house, why do these things happen to you, be more careful!” when I twisted the ankle. WOW THANK YOU GUYS, I’M HERE WRITING IN PAIN AND YOU THINK TO INSULT ME INSTEAD OF ASKING IF I’M OK. Goddamn, sometimes they make me so angry. I know, I need to live healthier, lose weight etc etc and this second knee-twisting has scared me so yes I am going to start eating healthier but Christ, sometimes I just need to feel like I’m still their little girl, k? My sister was the best out of them, asking if I needed ice, etc etc and no wonder I yelled for her and not either of the ‘rents. Wow this post has taken a very depressing turn. Yep, my parental issues are still hanging in there.
- Also, I fucking miss running. Never thought I’d say this, but I do. I want to get up on weekend mornings at 6 and run around the village, damn it. I was supposed to have time when I went on leave but then my stupid knees happened. Body, please cooperate. :(
- Separation anxiety check: yep, still happening.